Hi Borgia,
If I have received any sort of "gift" it has obviously not been the one of eloquent communication... perhaps I need a brother named Aaron. Any other "tounges" that I speak have been developed, the good old-fashioned way. I do apologize if my statements are more confusing than clarifying.
As far as the diversity of gifts that some people receive, I do not feel that all are manifestations of a "Holy" spirit.... many are nothing more than manipulations, some are innate abilities, some are derived from sincere emotions but are (social) anomalies, and some are spirit enabled but not from God. The ability to discern the differences can differ from person to person or culture to culture but there does seem to be one common thread among those that are genuine.......They serve a purpose. I've mentioned frequently that it is foolish to try and place constraints of human logic, physics, and reason on a being that is the very definition of "Super"-Natural... His ways are not man's ways but his interaction with mankind does seem to stay within the confines of what is in our ability to digest and what is of some benefit to our role in his agenda.
A litmnus test for these may very well be an ingrained sensibilty to some people... but it also may require being "plugged-in" to spiritual matters.... either way, self examination can help to develop a discerning eye towards these abilities, in believer and even non-beleivers.
What were you doing in the period before your “epiphany”?What were the circumstance that lead you to be open to this experience?
It was more a case of what I did NOT do than anything that I "did"....
Basically, I quit trying to figure it out and completely submitted to the impossibilty of that venture. I did not get "moved" by the persuasive teachings of man... I did not immerse myself in one of the many translations of the bible... I and I did not try and "earn" God's favor. I shut up (I know.. hard to believe) and listened.... I isolated myself from distractions and started asking God for His help, on His terms.... CONSTANTLY! I didn't even ask for additional wisdom or insight... nothing specific... just admitted my total frustration, humility, need for, and desire of a realtionship with Him.... I let my conscience be my guide and quit doing the things that I felt were "wrong".
It makes me think of a Father watching his son trying to assemble a toy that is far beyond his grasp... The father may ask if the son wants help but when the son shows that he wants to do it by himself, the father sits back and watches. Some son might say, "No, thank you"... some say "No, I wanna do it!"....some may even turn their back on their father to keep the toy out of his reach. The son's failure is not a loss but a learning opportunity that goes far beyond the mechanics of putting toys together. Finally beaten by the challenge, the son may leave the toy on the floor, may give it to his father, with his arms crossed and pout, or may actually admit that he has a need for dad's help..... For me, after every other attempt, It was finally complete handing everything over (the toy, tools, instructions... everything!) and asking God to show me, that opened the door for him to come in.
The point is......does your egg contain any substance or is it just nicely painted?
Who know's? Maybe some people have a need for flopping around on the floor and mumbling jibberish... I don't really see the point.
The egg that I found contains more amazing things than I could ever imagine! Not cheesy stuff... REAL life changing gifts.... In addition to the undescribable joy and peace that literally envelopes you is the new sense of purpose and meaning that shape your every thought. This is not the place to catalog the actions that say what a great humanitarian I've become... Those that have seen what has happened may be encouraged by them or they may think that I am a fool... I have heard plenty of both.... everyone can get what they want out of it. It is not just about feeding the hungry, taking in the homeless, nurturing the sick... it is also about sharing the REAL Good news to anyone with ears to hear. If you want more specifics, just PM.
The acceptance of God's spirit, bonding with yours, may sound like a controlling "take over".... Nothing could be further from the truth. You do not become a puppet, you do not loose any of your free-will, you do not loose any of your independent thinking, you do not loose your rationality, and you do not loose your love of people........ You may loose you love of the things in this world that are destructive, or disgusting, but if you miss them, you can always get them back.... It is always up to you.
There are thousands of pages that can be written on this.... entire chapters that could focus on nothing more than Paul's letters to different groups of believers, but I think that I've said too much already, in this forum. I welcome any PM's